I Didn’t Deserve to Lose Weight This Week
Okay, I have put it off all day because I didn’t want to write this post. I know what I want to write, but I hate writing it because you all are going to try to cheer me up and help me pull myself up by my bootstraps and I don’t deserve that this week. I didn’t deserve to lose weight this week either and here’s why:
I ate. Bad. A lot.
Okay, maybe not a LOT, but more than I should have.
I want to blame it on my period (TMI, sorry) because it was rougher this month than usual. Not only was it painful and heavy, it was longer than usual and it came with all the normal cravings multiplied! It is what it is and I didn’t try to resist the cravings. I just ate. The worst day was at my dad’s house on Sunday when my sister made a crock pot apple dump cake and I had a smallish bowl and then followed up with some M&M’s. Then we went to Denny’s for dinner and I had a salad, but I also ate the bread that comes with it. Other than that, I didn’t go completely crazy with my eating, but after last week when I declared I would watch my sodium, I didn’t even watch my freaking calories, much less the sodium.
So, even though I didn’t deserve to lose weight this week…
I lost 0.4 lbs this week!
And, even though Howard didn’t indulge quite as much as me, he lost 0.8 lbs so this week was just an off week for us.
Here’s another thing that happened to us this week. We ran out of groceries and money.
You see, I don’t talk about it too often here, but Howard and I are terrible with money. We’ve tried different things from time to time and we’re working on it, but this past week was a bad one for us. We were out of “our” groceries, meaning we had the kind that Benjamin can eat (school lunch, sandwiches, crackers, bread, etc.) but we didn’t have the lean protein, salad, and veggies that we should be eating. So…we just had to eat what was available, after feeding our boy, of course.
Where does this lead me?
We need to be better prepared!
I need to prepare my body for my monthly troubles and get in my calcium and water so I’m not cramping and craving. We need to prepare our cabinets and fridge for the entire month so we don’t run out of the good food. We need to become the boy scouts of our lives and Be Prepared. Ha!
So, maybe I didn’t deserve to lose weight this week, but I did lose, and my friends tell me that I have to celebrate every loss and learn from my mistakes. This is what I’m going to do. I’m going to pick myself up (by my bootstraps) and get “back on the wagon” to losing weight and I’m going to prepare my body for the rest of my life – the healthy life that I’ve always wanted.