I don’t want him to know…
There are some of the things; however, that we haven’t succeeded in protecting him from up to now and I pray for the strength to get past these moments in life so that maybe, just maybe he won’t remember…
Here’s my list (maybe I could turn them into August 30 resolutions…you know, like New Year’s resolutions, but actually follow through…):
(1) I don’t want The Boy to (a) be fat or (b) be embarrassed that his parents are fat.
Hubby and I are big people…I mean fat!! We don’t eat right, we don’t get enough activity… We started a weight loss program and did really great for about six months (I lost 90lbs, Hubby lost 160lbs) but we slacked off for the holidays last year and never got back to business. We’ve both gained and it seems a little out of control again.
So far, The Boy seems to be pretty slender and he eats light. He doesn’t care for ice cream very often (our downfall most of the time), but he enjoys chocolate candy and chocolate milk. We don’t keep that stuff in the house very often because he can get that at Papa and Granny’s house every Sunday so I think we’re making good choices as far as he is concerned, but we are not setting good examples.
(2) I don’t want The Boy to know that we’re broke.
When Hubby and I met, neither of us were great with money. We had no real responsibilities, except to take care of ourselves, and we were both pretty selfish people… We haven’t changed much… We spend frivolously, we don’t budget, we don’t save (except for our 401K and retirement), we have tons of debt (none in good standing), and we never have money on hand when we really need it (i.e. we haven’t had air conditioning in the Jeep in over a month).
Don’t get me wrong, we take care of The Boy’s needs first, but we also shower him with tons of gifts and “prizes”, we “splurge” on things for ourselves because we feel we’re depriving ourselves. We have talked about different budgeting ideas. I listened to Dave Ramsey’s program and LOVED it. We had budget counseling with our Pastor. We started couponing and trying to live more frugally. We just haven’t buckled down to get it under control. We are never on the same page when it comes to “where do we start?!!”.
(3) I don’t want The Boy to be exposed to our smoking.
I figure this one is going to get people’s attention and I’m going to hear about how the second hand smoke is dangerous for him and this should be #1 on my list. I know, I know, I know…!!!
Hubby and I have smoked since before we met, increased after we met, I quit when I was pregnant and for about 2 months after The Boy was born, but started back up again when I started working…and have vowed to quit so many times I cannot count anymore.
You would think I would have quit when The Boy first told me, “Mommy, get you swiggerwets and let’s go outside to play” or when he put a Twizzler in his mouth and said, “look, my swiggerwet” or last Sunday when he got a cigarette out of Hubby’s pack, took it to him, and said, “here you go, Daddy, let’s go outside”… Ugh!!!
What do you wish you could change about yourself before your children are old enough to remember? What do you wish you HAD changed before now…that your children know about you? Where do you find the strength to change so drastically and stay changed??!!