This morning as I was driving my son to day camp, he was being silly and loud. This is not abnormal for him and usually my husband is involved in the silliness as well. Typically, I just drive and focus on the road and let them do their thing. I don’t get involved in the silliness normally, but every now and then, I will make a comment or say “you boys are silly”. Today; however, I chimed in. Benjamin asked what noise a Dodo bird makes and I made this really loud, obnoxious sound and he cracked up. Howard looked at me like I was crazy and laughed as well. He mentioned that for someone (me) who doesn’t like loud noises, I sure was egging on our son (who had actually continued the loud, obnoxious sound over and over by this point). I don’t know what came over me, but in that moment, I felt happy and silly and wanted to be a part of their fun.
This doesn’t happen nearly often enough.
Yesterday I was looking on Facebook and saw several of my friends out and about this weekend. There were so many smiles and accomplishments on my news feed and I found myself smiling inside because they were having so much fun. For me, though, I was feeling sad and exhausted and bored and run down. I wanted a nap, but I had some work I wanted to do. It wasn’t work that was due or overdue. In fact, I was working ahead of myself and using that excuse to continue sitting in the bed and not engaging with my family.
What is wrong with me?
I have a wonderful little family with a happy little boy and a husband who loves me beyond anything that I can comprehend. I have a two fantastic jobs that are supporting my family and we are more comfortable now than we have been since Howard and I met. I have a beautiful extended family that loves me and supports everything I do.
I just can’t seem to get out of my funk!
So, I’m asking you all today. Where do you find your joy? Where do you find the energy to get out of bed and take your kids to the zoo or the park or just simply play with them at home? Where do you find your laughter on an everyday basis? Where do you find your happiness, in general, and how do you share it with the world?