What I really want for Mother’s Day

my boy on my back 

Last night was one of those nights. You know the ones, where everyone is a little on edge and Mommy and Daddy are tired, but the boy is ready to play, and things just aren’t going right…and then Mommy completely loses it.

My emotions are on a roller coaster lately and I honestly couldn’t tell you why. I know I struggle with depression and anxiety, but this seems to be different. It could be the need for an adjustment in my medication and I should probably mention that to a doctor. Last night when Hubby asked me one more time “what’s wrong”, I just fell apart.

I’m tired. I’m exhausted (there’s a difference). I’m in pain (still…from another staph infection). I’m overwhelmed with my desire to blog (and work online and at home) full time, but my obligation to work outside the home to help support the family. I look at my house in a mess every day and I know I need to just get up and do something to get it cleaner every day, but I’m exhausted and tired and in pain. I’m not eating right, which makes me feel even worse (physically and about myself). I’m being whiny, which makes me feel like I need to put my big girl panties on and grow up, already!

I’m not really great at asking for (or accepting) what I want and need, so I’m just putting it all there today and telling you all what I really want for Mother’s Day.

What I really want for Mother’s Day

1. A day to rest, peacefully, and not feel guilty about it. I don’t want to go to work, open the laptop, answer emails or phone calls, or really even be awake. I just want to relax, sleep, and be uninterrupted.

2. A day with my boys where we are all in a good mood, happy to be together, and none of us are sneezing our heads off because of this ugly allergy season.

3. A real plan to get my family out of debt and a commitment that we will get it done as fast as possible so I can start toward my work-at-home dream.

4. Family photos – We have never taken professional family photos before and I have some ideas that I want to do with this blog and those photos.

5. Totally selfish Mother’s Day wish here –> I want this camera! No, seriously have you seen this camera?! {and, yes, I totally get the irony in the last two being “expensive” items right after I talk about getting the family out of debt..that’s part of the problem}

my boy being sweet

So, there it is…what I really want. I know Hubby and my boy have some plans brewing and they always do so great for me on Mother’s Day and my birthday. I love them both so much!

To all the mothers out there, I hope you have a wonderful day on Sunday, and I hope you get what you really want (at least 1 out of 5, maybe).

What do you really want for Mother’s Day? 

Comments

  1. I think not feeling mommy guilt about everything would be the best gift ever. I feel guilty about allowing my daughter an occasional TV show or appreciating a rare shower alone. Even though I know I shouldn’t and know that a happy mommy is a better mommy, I just struggle with the guilt all the day.
    Kelly @ Texas Type A Mom recently posted..Grilled Shrimp Tacos with Jalapeño Mango Slaw Recipe #McCormickTacoNightMy Profile

    • Mommy guilt is a big one for me as well. I work outside the home all day and then try to blog some at night and it seems like I’m always telling my boy “just a minute”.

  2. Hmmm … That camera and tablet combo would be pretty awesome! Truly I would love to have a really good camera. But if I could have a dreams come true kind of Mother’s Day?

    1. Healing in my marriage and family. Long story and we’re getting there but if we could be done with the hurting part and just be there … I wouldn’t argue!

    2. Be out of debt! Nuff said!

    3. Restoration for my daughter. (Another long story. Short version – drug addiction ruined her life and stole her children and might send her to prison.)

    4. Parole from Facebook Jail! – “I guess I have gotten a little slap happy in my attempts to connect with the Social Fabric Community …. because you’re the cool kids y’know … and have run into brick walls on both Facebook and Twitter!

    A couple of weeks ago, I was accused of Spamming (followed too many pages and left invites asking people to like my page) and was thrown in Facebook Jail for 2 weeks. I didn’t take the rules of probation seriously enough and I am now in jail for 60 days! I am allowed to post from my own profile and on other personal profiles but I will not be allowed to post on Facebook pages for the coming two months! Grrrrrr! I can still LIKE your pages though and will do so if you leave me a message letting me know where you are. Just don’t do that too often or you’ll wind up in the next cell!

    And on Twitter … I hit the point at which I am not allowed to follow others until more folks follow me! (Does that rule make ANY sense?) ”

    Can you arrange all that? =)
    Beth Zimmerman (@BethZimmerman) recently posted..Mother’s Day and InfertilityMy Profile

    • Aww, Beth, I know about the Facebook jail and the Twitter thing. It’s pretty crazy…but two months, yikes! Don’t worry, though, because you just stick around SoFab and we will take care of ya!

      As for the family stuff, I can offer prayers and thoughts of happier days. {{hugs}}

  3. I think your requests are reasonable…except for maybe that camera! lol :p

    Sorry you’ve been uncomfortable and cranky. :( But here’s to you feeling better soon! Cheers!
    Tahlia B. recently posted..My Allure Beauty BoxMy Profile

    • Thanks so much…and I’m thinking maybe the camera without the tablet. Or maybe I need to try to win it somewhere…hmm…

  4. Huge Hugs Janet! I’m right there with you, but do hope you’re feeling better soon. It’s so tough trying to be the strong and happy one all the time.

    Take care and rest – Happy Mother’s Day!!!

    Blogfully yours,
    Barb
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